He was on messenger last night. Not the stupid "he" (not the one who makes me feel stupid and foolish), the he who makes me feel loved when I am around him. He hurt me before, and thought I hated him for it. Sure, being hurt sucks, but its not exactly something you need to be holding a grudge about for nine months. Truth be told, I don't think I ever stopped loving him to begin with. He was my first kiss. Ahh, the memories of snow... Whenever he is online he always asks me if I am dating anyone. To which I always answer no. Because I'm not. He thinks I should have a boyfriend. And not be single. He said I should be and gave a few reasons, among which were I'm sexy, smart and have great lips. The lips thing was a little strange. Never been told I have great lips before. He thinks I should hate him for what he did to me. It took my saying that I forgave him about five or six times for him to finally let it sink in. I have a display picture for messenger that is a picture of a girl and guy hugging and there are words next to it that say "I want to spend forever in your arms." He looked at that and said "Yeah me too". Neither of us have cars or licenses yet, so there is no way I can go and see him or him come and see me. But there is a stake dance this weekend that I am going to get him to come to. *sigh* To see him again, and see that he really has forgiven himself for hurting me. My friend thinks that I shouldn't let him into my heart again. She thinks I am just going to get hurt again. Played again. Because one of our other friends (among several others) was also played by him. If he is to be believed, he has been not so "YAY GIRLS" happy since June. He said he ''switched off girls'' a lot. I hope that's true. I want to be the only one he wants. ~*~Swirling snow~*~