Sometimes I wonder what it all is worth. No matter how I try, I'm never good enough for him. I am me, but he doesn't seem to realize that I am the same person I have always been. I haven't changed, I'm still me. Which doesn't seem like enough anymore. Now it seems like I have to be this sex goddess for him to want to be around me. I'm not. I don't have sex. I'm not ready. I think I would seriously have some kind of like...mental break down or something. I don't know. And he acts like how I feel means nothing. I'll tell him not to do something because of how it makes me feel (usually related to the making me feel like a whore kind of thing) and he tells me not to take it personal and not to be such an effing pussy. Sorry, but I'm not one of your whores who will let you walk all over me.