He's supposed to be coming back sometime next week. I am kind of a little bit scared as to what its going to be like. I mean...yeah I've missed him, but I really need to not be around him. At least he'll live up on campus and I won't see him very often. Its not like he'll leave campus to come sneak over to my house as he's been known to do *shakes head*. I hope he doesn't come around very much, I'm trying to get along without him around, without the things that we'd do. I don't want kisses for the sake of kissing, the way he seems to...I want them for what they mean and I'm pretty sure that he doesn't want any kind of relationship. Any time I try to tell him that we've got to cool things, he agrees and then the next time he sees me its like he forgets what we've talked about. I can't go on like this. I need to know if I'm something more to him than just a friend with benefits. I need to know.