Ha, so you know that horrible twist I mentioned in the last entry? Go figure that one came up. He'd been basically ignoring me. Apparently I was "demanding" because he said he would get back to me and never did and I kind of assumed our drive in movie date was never going to happen. Freaking. Gah. Which I'm still sure it isn't. Also he says that "a relationship with us is never going to work" because he leaves for boot camp in November and then by May he'll be gone from the valley for good. As in not coming back. It's a good thing I wasn't too attached. Here was to hoping. There is this other guy that I had kinda been dating too. Now he's also not speaking to me so there's the end of that. I just seem to have the worst luck with guys. I think I'm jinxed? I mean, never had a relationship longer than like two months because whenever I'm in one, the guy always panics and breaks up with me. I should just not date anymore for a while. Meanwhile, my ex wants me back. He says the "real" reason he broke up with me 9 months ago was because he realized how much he really did love me and it scared him because he didn't want to end up hurt again (his previous girlfriend was the biggest *insert curse word of choice here* on the face of the earth. they were together for four-ish years and pretty much she ruined him; I've known him the whole time he was with her). Anyways, so now he wants me back, and as much as I still care about him, I don't want to get hurt again, which seems to be what happens every time and I don't wanna deal with that. He's trying to quit drinking and smoking, which are two things that if he does do will help if I do CONSIDER taking him back. But the last item of consideration I know isn't going to happen because I know him so well. Not going to get my hopes up about that... *sigh*