I keep wanting things which I know aren't good for me, which is silly but it doesn't stop those wishful thoughts. I've been studying today, I don't want to fail but I'm going to anyway. I just haven't cared enough lately. School isn't important to me, even though it should be. There is so much more than that. I can take painting as a whole, complete course next year. Not just as part of a subject. ^_^ I guess I'm only writing here because I have little else to do, apart from watch the deleted scenes from Love Actually. Which I've done a thousand times. Maybe I shall watch City of Angels and sit by myself and cry. Mostly I love being a girl, but lately I've grown to hate it. The only nice thing is that you can wear skirts and nice shoes.