i've been listening to Babylon after not hearing it for almost a year. it reminds me of summer and being in love, i miss summer, i miss being in love. nostalgia sucks today. i'm dreading tonight, people i'd rather avoid, confrontation. again. i like people to smell the same, i like the familiarity. standing in the bus exchange yesteday i could suddenly smell him, the spicy, sexual smell that brought back memories of him and the times we were together. he was nowehere near me, but i could feel him through those memories. i long for summer. five weeks of school to go.