well... lets see. i'm 21, its a friday night and i'm sitting in my dorm room having good conversation with my dorm mate. but shouldnt i be out clubbing or bar hopping? you'd think that wouldnt you? i figured thanks to one of my best friends jason i would try this online diary thing out so wont he just be thrilled. now lets just see if i am actually able to keep up with it. now i just need to figure out how i get the awesome background thing going! So here is how it is. I just transferred to my new college this semester. Am 2 and a half hours from home which i guess is not so far but i never realised how much i would miss it. I have met some great people up here though its so much colder then home. I miss my friends back home too. Props to my friend Jason who keeps up with the phone calls once a week or so. i'm a little burnt out from partying every night the past few weeks. Just a quick note for you guys in case you didnt know - dont party too hard when you have an 8am class the next morning (note to self... get later classes next semester) As far as guys are concerned in my world. well haha its a pretty funny story. i am getting to know this one guy but he is really not my type and i dont know how to break that to him without hurting his feelings. on the other hand my recent ex (the guy broke up with me the day before my 21st birthday after he had dinner at my house) offered the friend with benefits package and i am almost tempted to give in which is probably a really bad idea considering other aspects of the situation. I also realised it wouldnt be so bad being single and getting to know other people. I dont know many people on campus, or here in general which sux because i know so many people back home. ok... i need to stop because now im making myself down. i think i just need to get away from the school for a weekend. i am anxious for thanksgiving break to get here. .................... so i had a thought after reading through a bunch of peoples diaries (wow that sounds so wrong for some reason) i realised a lot of people are younger on here and thats cool. I also realised i forgot what it was like to be younger. I mean yea there's still stuff in my own life that bothers me but then i remembered how down i had been my freshman and sophomore year of highschool. I dont think it really got better until i got to college and realised there were other people out there like me and i wasnt alone. it sux getting hurt in relationships, school worries as well as family and friends... it all just sucks. its weird, i think i just woke up one day and realised... screw everyone else... i gotta do what i gotta do to keep on going. i cant even begin to imagine how i did half the things i did when i was so depressed and to look back and realise i came out of it... its a good feeling. i dont miss being a teenager thats for sure. i do worry about where i am going to be in life the next couple of years and whether or not ill have that significant other. sometimes waking up in a place that isnt my home is sad. i never imagined myself here thats for sure. college is so different from high school. Im not talking community college either where you commute every day because i did do that and it was ok but this being away thing... i dont miss high school one bit and dont envy those who are there. thats not meant as a bad thing i just hope the rest of you get to the good part of life.... it does get better.