i hate this cmputer, i just had a really long entry typed up for today and i was trying to move my curpros to answer an im and it changed the page so... ill just make this one short and simple. thank you serena and jason for your comments, i really do appreciate them. i know that you guys are right but i also think it is a mind over matter thing. a lot of people are afraid of what they dont know. i see that every day with hillary. i know matt is upset that i think the way i do but it may be that way until proven otherwise. i wish i could say i was peachy keen on the matter but im not. i am anxious for my doctor appointment to get here so i can get things rolling. ill possibley see a specialist in philly. keep your fingers crossed. love you guys!