its been awhile since i have updated so here is what has been up. yesterday matt got in to a car accident.i was very upset especially since i am stuck here at school and was unable to be there for some sort of support. he says he is just really beat up and the car is totalled but grrr... i dont even want to think about what could have happened. still go to the gym every night.. i find it helps get some things off of my mind. i dont know for sure... maybe it was sarcasm but i got an im from anthony today - which was very out of the blue but maybe it has been decided between both of us that it all was very inevitable. he did say that he guessed he needed his rebound too but the only difference in that is that matt is not a rebound - im crazy in love with him and i dont think i could have found a better match. when matt told me he had been in an accident, that his car was pushed off the road by a trailer and he rolled... even though i knew i wanted him in my life - that made it run even deeper which i didnt think was possible but i dont think i can imagine life without him. he is very supportive of me, especially when it comes to school and deciding what to do about the surgery i am considering having done. id say overall i am content in my life right now. school work keeps coming but i feel very motivated to do it. i have found through a survey i recently had to do for stats that most marywood students have a gpa close to 4.0 and even though i am not one of them it really makes me want to be one of them. i have not partied at all this semester and i dont intend to. i still get the phone calls every thursday night saying "lets go clubbing" but the thing of it is, when i go out i drink and why would i ruin all my hard work in the gym over a drink? also i am very determined to do well grade wise this semester and sticking with the books. i may not go out a lot but i have good dorm mates, i feel good physically and mentally, i have a stable relationship and i work on campus. i am very content with life right now... a little anxious to get the school thing over with but if i make a good effort i may finish sooner than i think.