ive decided to not date guys anymore. sorry to mark who i have seen three times and sorry to chad who i saw once (you bastard if you ever come near me again i promise you will regret it)and i am whole heartedly sorry to paul who is the sweetest guy in the world... but i cant make myself feel something i dont. i think the whole reason for this is that i dont want to be touched, not even holding hands... i try to get close but push away and thats not fair but i really think that anthony burnt me that bad and i just need to be single for awhile. so i guess thats all i really can write right now because im just too overwhelmed to think sttraight. luckily i get to go home on friday