... How could i have been so dumb. To think he actually cared so much to something i admitted to not care for. But to think about it, really think about it, i'm finding i do care. A lot. Maybe ive ditched my robot ways. To share something so intimate with two other people and not tell me. To keep me guessing and hoping. Not fair at all. I'm really bummed out on this. It makes me feel like im more into this than he is. Im just another name to add to his list. I really hope thats not what it is... But it feels like it right now. Anyways, theyre clearing Jimmies house out right now. It's really sad. I dont know what theyre going to do with all of it... Ive found out why i never liked relationships in the past. It's because when you become part of one, everything is shared... things you werent sure you wanted to know. Love comes along too, but there are some things that you never had to worry about if there was no commitment. I'm really scared about getting my heart broken. Ive never had to worry much about that in the past. I think im just starting to realize that im a lot more vulnerable than i thought i was. We'll see. Take care ♥