Oh god, what's been happening...Well, Johnny boy punched through a wall and some windows when he got pissed at Roxanne and is living with his mom's again. We almost broke up, I couldn't stand the fighting anymore. I felt so..trapped, sufficated. So there's counseling. And more fights. I had to file a harassment suit against this nigger at school. Way long story but he's not in any trouble. Of course not no one really expected that anyway. Johnathen got three days OSS for punching someone after he found out about that. ANGER. I'm in a constant state of asphyxiation. Forcing away the stomach pains as I go another day without eating, smoking ciggerettes breakfast lunch and dinner. His come as a snack. I want to vomit a new reality. I need a constant in my life, something to believe in. I'm nothing but everything to him...