I'm sorry when I fuck up. Its just this is so hard to take. I never ment to hurt anyone but myself, although that's usually the case. Yeah, I've heard everything gets better and, sure, it'll all work out in the end. So why hasn't it, ever? There's lulls in the shit parade I call my life when I'm filled with teenage angst but then it roars back in full band and everything sucks sucks sucks. I hate everything. Jillian