i think thought is overrated and we should just go with the motions 'cause you can't swim upstream without drowning.(unless you're really strong, which i'm not)informertials are in my head and i can't find the remote so i'll stare at the ceiling all night while roaches climb the walls. i'm pretending they're not there but then again i never was that good at acting so i'll sigh and pull the covers over me and hope i sufficate. not wanting to die is so hard for me pills and more medication forcing sterilized happiness in my veins. i could feel sick about it though everything makes me feel that way now a days so i'll...do what i do everday in a routine just because i want to live another day to be in his arms at night. i'm such a sick sweet love child.