um yeah. i feel like shit. and brett is most likely going to read this. i think that this diary is the only way we let each other know how we truly feel. his new gf. i dont think they're going to last. my other friends dont think so either. he likes her for her boobs. i think. i dont know. i dont talk to him anymore. it kills me. but i know that he asks about me to lara. but he doesnt miss me. w/e. i miss him but if he doesnt want anything to do with me. fine. he started talking to me on myspace and was upset about my last entry. i pretty much didnt mean anything i wrote in that entry. i was really angry. and i dont know what i feeel. obviously he doesnt care. but i guess its time to move on. he keeps blaming me for everything and making it seem like i ruimned our relationship. but i didnt break up with him. he broke up with me. and i never gave up. even after we were done. and now that ive given up, he's pissed. w/e i dont know waht to think about him. he's not that same as he used to be. i liked him so much more when he was innocent. now he's a monster that's taken over. ive influenced him for the better. but he seems to think that im always competing with him. im not. i do and say what i do because i care about him. i really did love him. head over heals. but i dont think that he ever did. well, i actually feel like he did at one point. but he doesnt anymore. and i still dont know if i do or dont. he is off with all the other girls he has and im here... with someone else. im happy that i got to fall in love. i dont know when i will next, though. maybe i never will. but i think i will. ive decided that im going to the park with taylor. and im never going to see brett again. he hurts me so much. and he doesnt even realize it. i dont know whenn we're leaving. but i hope soon. i miss you, brett. but that doesnt make any difference. and ill miss you and everyone else when i leave.