Okay - I'm seriously confused now. I saw Brad the other day. He finally approached me about our problems and we talked for 3 hours into the wee-hours of the morn. The next day I went to his place because I thought he wanted to try being friends...well... to sum it up... we screwed, and i know i still love him, it fucked up what i had with nick... and now i hate myself even MORE . which, amazingly, is possible....