so today is sunday. on friday i was bitten by a snake. lit my finger on fire. then had suitcases and backpacks fall on my head. all within 3 hours of each other. saturday i went to the cape and hung out with mary. saw jarek and sam randomly walking around on the road and it took 3 trips past them for me to convince mary that it was him. they decided to go and look for 12 yearold sluts to get pussy. so mary and i went to west dennis beach and hung out for a bit. then met to older (much) men and then jarek and sam came out to meet up. we went to princess pond to go nekkid swimming. but we didnt get nekkid ebcasue i didnt want that at all. esp because i'm madly in love with Ben still and things with jarek dont usually work out. as we all know. then we all just hung out and shot the crap for a few more hours. they went home at about 1. and we chased his truck throwing loaded waterbottels into the bed. it was really really fun. then mary and i snuck out at 2:30 after getting home at 1:30 and didnt get back in until around 5. woke up at 9:30. left for nauset beach at 11:30. oh. that brings us to today. sunday. we got to the beach at abotu 12 and found some people that austin knew. we took them out in the truck too. ashley and kenzie. and a dog named "jesus christ messiah" lol. he was the cutest thing ever. really. he almost feel out of the trust a couple times. lol. it was so bumpy getting out there. wow. you have no idea (unless youve been tehre before. beach nine) i had kind of hoped that jarek would be able to come too. but turns out he couldnt. which is good because people were drinking so much that they literally would not wake up. ariel was out and throwing up. which is good. but we couldnt keep her up. then she was so cold that she couldnt get warm. she was alright after a little bit. i've had to slap mary so many times that not only does my hand still hurt, but her face is probably going to be bruised. i forced her to throw up to. she was in and out of consciousness alot. and we probably should have brought her to the hospital. but she would have litterally killed someone (probably me) well noone exactly died. even tho i did hafta give her CPR. on the brighter side. i now have friends down there. austin was the first of that crew. but theres the Ashley, 'Kenzie, Quin, Becca, Ariel, Kyle, and Colin. theyre great. my age/mary's age. and actually nice. how long will it last? noone knows. i love my Ben. more than he knows. sticking with me through all the stuff thats going on. and the shit that i put him through. hes amazing. and noone will ever convince me otherwise. unless they have proof (pictures) of him cheating on me. which will never happen. A) i honestly believe that he does love me. with all my soul in believe in him. in US. and B) if it did happen noone will ever tell me. lol. thats my life. **Ben - I'm happily addicted to your heroin, and will always be your punkrockprincess, you fucking metalhead =p ** smooches ** love you so much