My world is falling apart. Ben is in the process of breaking up with me. All i've ever wanted was for him to be happy, but what hurts so much abotu it is the fact that he dosent want to even try to put things into perspective. without letting me understand. my world... is broken. i dont know what to do. hes making a decision based on this upcoming week, during which we wont be talking. its not fair. at all first he pulls the pieces of my heart back together. gives me somethign that noone else has, and then takes that away. and now hes taken away his love. without giving me a chance to understand. hes making such a buge mistake. and i know that because of the sacrifaces that id do for him. example - the abortion. was ONLY done for him. id have done anything to keep damien... but i did it for ben. so he could have a future. becuase it would make him happy. god. i'm so madly in love with this boy. theres no doubt that id go to any length for him. no doubt at all.