Well, in the end we all fall down... I had a dream last night that I died, then I woke up at three A.M, and frankly, was pissed off that I woke up. THen I had a dream that I killed myself, and now I'm pissed off that I'm here at school... but I guess its okay becuase this weekend I'm going to get birth control, I just need a ride to westboro.. anyone wanna volunteer?? So I was right, but I wont get into the details of it becuase its just friggin depressing Well, apparantly my grandfather died of a drug overdose at the age of 52, and his wife was institutionalized on a nervous breakdown becuase of his death. Then she died of cerveral (sp?) cancer. I practically dont' have a dad at all. She got drunk at a party and had sex with multiple people, any of which I could be from. The fucking 22yo whore. She was married at either 16 or 17 to an abusive guy who caused her 4 miscarriages...she's addicted to ciggs wicked bad, and other assorted drugs. so yea... things just cant get any better this week. Nope, not at all... tried to look up the agency, but I think it went out of buisness =/ greaaaaat. Whatever - Bobby bailed and is now goin to Boston for the weekend, leaving me and shar to tan on our own - again... anyone wanna drive me to westboro for a few hours for los pills? *pease* Whatever - I just wish I hadn't spent so much time on trying to make things right with the only person I care about, it bit me smack in the ass and def will leave a scar. On the bright side my boobs are better tho :) YEEEY I don't think I'll give up on the kid tho... thats just not me. I'll probably always be trying... love sucks, but is beautiful when shared.. DISCLAIMER :: Due to Brad thinking that I'm making him look like a prick and that he leads me on, I must add that he DOES NOT LEAD ME ON, i'm just a sucker for love and am deeply in love with him. it is MY fault for things that go wrong, and I MYSELF KNOW that a relationship between us would never work because of my so called "attitude" and "clingyness" -- so just so everyone knows, Brad is not as bad a person as you might seem to have thought he was/is. or somthign like that. so in short :: HEs NOT A BAD KIDD, really =/