Well, the past week has been interesting with Brad discovering that I have always been trying to make him happy. He sent me two messages last wednesday saying that he was breaking up with Felecia, becuase their relationship was missing something important. Something that he and I had. And that he would'nt be in a relationship without it. Naturally, the new-found skeptisism in me was very suspicious. "Why was he telling me this, as if I care?" I became angered because I thought that he was trying to upset me on purpose like he had a few times in the past, it turns out that he wanted for us to talk and possibly work things out. We spoke that afternoon for roughly an hour before I had to go off to work for the afternoon. He came to visit me at work and had to wait almost 2.5 hours until I was free enough to talk to him. BIG brownie points there because when we had dated he avoided the cafe like the plague. We connected so much in such a little amount of time that I became really suspicious, I had no idea what he wanted from me again. I figured he was out there to crush me even more, if that were even possible. Later that night when I got home we talked more and throughout the remainder of the week, and weekend, I worked out a type of contract that listed the things I needed him to make up for, and there were even a few catches. Just so that I don't get hurt when it all goes to hell again. Its been about a week and I decided to go out on a limb and take him back into my life with a few exceptions. No sex until I'm very ready again. Could take months. Also, he has to come over alot. I had to ask Stephy to tell Ellen for me, cuz I'm afraid for my life when it comes to this matter. Ellen still tried to female-puppy slap me to Istambul when she got onto the bus this afternoon, but thankfully I was buisy giving Shar her 15 Birthday humps. (I'm losing the Birthday Hug habbit, it's all about the Birthday Humps from now on) **NOTE to BRAD** Someday I'll love you like I once did, but my heart is still locked away in the cage I placed it in until it heals...Keep your promises and unlock it, you deserve the remains... Be gentile, I'm broken