heh heh irked is a funny word. i know the lowrider would get real old real quick. the new header is a pic me and kathy drew its cool innit? its not the best quality cos i had to do it small else i couldnt upload it for some reason :s anyway u get the idea, v random. its open for analysis but i dont thinkthere is any deep underlying meaning lol. i feel like shit i just cant seem to get over this cold/flu and i have to work tomorow cos the lady im working with deff cant cope on her own on a saturday, actually i dont think anyone could cope alone on a saturday, its pretty busy even if there are 2 people! anyway the point is we are all extremely understaffed and so my mom happens to be the only person who could fill in for me, and she is really really ill not just realy ill like me if u know what i mean? the reason - hoobastank lol this reminds me of..fighting over the remote control LOL well besides feeling crappy im pretty happy in general, its snowy which sucks but well its only the weather, it will go away. im in love that sounds so soppy but im really happy at the moment with me and Lou it just all seems to be going rather well and stuff and whatever happens that keeps me smiling which is good considering the volatile nature of my family. im really happy wi my frineds too (lauz i doubt u'll read this but i miss u!!!) i never get to see any of them really besides in school. lauz lives like like 10 mins away but its too cold and nasty to go out and there is nothing to do. besides not seeing them i really have fun when i do, i feel i can be totally honest wi them all and they will still love me lol. there are some people who are in "the group" who i just dont "get" but hey there is nobody focring me to be friends wi them! I'm always laffin when im wi Lauz :) and well this sounds pretty weird but i just feel liek i could take Jam and Lauz and Kathy and Rach and Jo and gi them all big huge sqeezes :D lol im so stupid when im not depressed. i miss South Africa but...HEY THATS A GOOD IDEA!!!im gonna do a "how many 'sleeps' to go " countdown from now on...lemme work it out...117 i think???something liek that anyway i will work it out again next time to check :) anway woo im gonna be there soon. k im gonna go buh bye x