I knew it!dam entry died! Luckily I saved it in Word first :) so here is what almost got lost… So much for my perfect attendance, oh well, its not like my life depends on it. My register teacher says she has never had a single day off from school in her 3osomething years of teaching!thats just crazy, i think she really enjoys her job tho. Hmm i have the rest of the day to do exactly what i want, its so cool. Apparently school os not so cool anyway cos everyone is bitching about everyone else behind thier backs so m quite glad i decided not to go. Fell like i havent seen Louis in ages, even tho i have seen him every day except sunday for the past... ages. LOl but the last time it was just me and him was last thursday, the last time i got to spend more than like 10 seconds walking between classes talking to him anyway. Its really weird, you wouldnt think that 12 miles distance between us would make such a big difference to how the relationship works but its so different to any other relationship. Normally a boyfriend is one of the most important things in your life, well maybe not to everyone but in my case. Your decisions and plans are kinda based around eachother but its not like that now. i mean obviously he is really really important to me but its just that i never see him really so it just feels like he is just like "in the background" always there but not actually THERE if u know what i mean? its like the day i see him (normally we see eachother about once a week after school) its really cool and im really happy and feel v loved secure etc then the next day im all like "aww hes the bestest" or whatever and then the longer the time goes i start to miss him and i feel like were kind of drifting appart even tho i know were not then the cycle starts again. maybe im just insecure or something i dunno, or maybe we just need to spend more time together :D I just did a quiz, apparently my tarot card is the sun, or maybe my answers just reflect my anoyance at lack of sun in scotland. OOOOOOH i just bought an offspring americana tshirt on ebay for 2pounds :D yaye! I feel like a really long relaxing bath but tht never works, everytime i try it i just get bored and get out and have a shower. I feel like changing my colour scheme, i dunno what i want tho...hmmmmm. Its my little half sisters birthday today, thing is i cant quite remeber how old she is, am i a really really bad sister? Its just that well i was like 5 or something when she was born and i only saw her for like a week or two a year till the past 2 and a half years which i havent seen her at all in so its pretty difficult keeping track. At least i know when it is tho.. i dont even know when my lil bro's bday is, sometime early april i do know but the exact date eludes me. my mom might know.... Its so cool i found this thing on my media player that shows when the last time is you listened to a song, im listening to all the ones i havent heard since May, i really shouldnt neglect my tunes like that. At the moment im listening to Muse - Blackout, its so cool :) Last night i was listening to Idlewild, 3 Doors Down and Trapt just for a change, i dont like any of them all that much tho. I realised during my biology test that HIM's lyrics are really quite twisted, i had been listening to Razorblade Romance in the morning then i had "join me in death" and "gone with sin" in my head so i doodled some lyrics then Rachel looked at them and she was like "woah r u feeling ok!?" well if u saw someone writing down "I love your skin oh so white I love your touch cold as ice And I love every single tear you cry I just love the way you're losing your life" wouldnt you be worried too? im dreading trying to save this entry konwing my luck it will die :'( I watched scrubs this morning, its co cool lol, i never watch tv tho Watched "girl next whore" last night *(heh heh sick movie title)* that was lauras idea anyway it was ok, the plot wasnt v believable, infact i think it was just an excuse for a soft porn film to be released to the general public but there were some laughs which made it worthwhile. Elisha takes off all her clothes except her red thong within the fist like 10 minutes James i think u really wanna see this film ;) She is so pretty tho, beatch, without even trying! i mean obviously shes gonna have a ton of makeup on but it looks like she doesnt, she doesnt even do much to her hair i mean she even looks pretty when she is swimming and her hair is slicked back against her head. oh well we cant all be famous rich and beautiful, you almost cant have one without the other2. Hmm im happy with myself tho, its just reflex to complain i guess, its like a built in "girl thing" but i guess society is to blame really. I really need to shut up, if i could type as fast as i thought u people would never stop reading