so i stayed at his house last night, before u say anything - no nothing happened it was just nice to hang out as friends and then we missed the train so yeah. silly boy crashed his car. i realised that i can be happy wi him as just a friend, i mean not to sound bug headed but i can go out n pull any night but i don thnk there will be too many girls queing up for him. especially now that he has a reputation for being a liar and a cheat! u guys probably think im mad for just forgiving and carring on as friends but it was gonna end soon anyway and ithink i have no told him alot of things he probably should know. he said he didnt like to think of me with other guys and i said well hes gonna have to get used to it cos he has no right to me anymore. *sigh* so i dont know if anything wwill happen with cameron, he was being really nice to me in txts but still i hardly know the guy. i dreamed we were in his (very sexy btw) ar and he triend to kiss me but i was paralised or something so i couldnt pull away, i woke up cos i was in such a panic. maybe thats tryna tell me something. im determined not to waste my holiday so im gonna g bake some bread i think, maybe.