i love my best friend a lot she's right next to me and she's talking nonsense she's actually not high for the first time manny thank you for everything yesterday was nice i told you that boba was bomb duh i miss tons of things you don't even know it my mom friends my drunk cousin stephanie high school picking fights with lacy & everything things from the past seem to connect and i'm scared to be honest. i don't know what to do but i know i need time to heal and time for myself. no not being selfish, it's just needed. if only.