christmas lost its true meaning. i have nothing to say except that my parents indirectly told me that they knew about my tattoos, i continue to deny it. looking back at the past couple of months, i've come to realize that i lost someone that i love, juan. family & childhood friend. i can only hope for his return. and the person that has truly helped me the most with everything thats been going on since august, all the issues and health problems. i can never thank or re-pay liz for everything that she has done for me. she's brought out a different side in me and has showed me many things i never knew of & i did the same for her. i love her almost as much as i love morrisey & she loves me almost as much as she loves daryl palumbo. i wouldn't want to have it any other way but to be able to sing cumbias with my comadre!