wow ive never been this upset abotu leaving ryn before? last night cried about 10/12 hours i was home? and like 2 straigh hours on the phone with ryan:( i had to sleep ALLL bymyself last nigt without ryry:(:( sooo sad...drew him lots of pictured to get my mind of things...sent him lots of mail today:) pictures...letters...draings..seashells..ooooh yah no...ok well oging to go to sleep so i can wait for ryan to call me:( tooooooootles we drive tonight, and you are by my side. We're talking about our lives, like we've known each other forever. the time flies by, with the sound of your voice. its close to paradise, with the end surely near. and if i could only stop the car and hold onto you, and never let go (and never let go) i'll never let go (i'll never let go) as we round the corner to your house you turned to me and said, "i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent." and, i want to speak these words but i guess i'll just bite my tongue, and accept "someday, somehow" as the words that we'll hang from. why does tonight, have to end? why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts. we'll skip the goodbyes. if i had it my way, i'd turn the car around and runaway, just you and i. I love you Ryan.