yupp sooo now im jsut starting my hermit stage when idont wanan do anything and i just wanna stay home under my covers or on the computer and cry..listen to the sad songs that remind me of ryan and ya know justtt get all sad:(...esp the Brian Mcknihgt songss my goodness they gett mee lol...yea im sure weve all had days like this thoo..but im seriously like ughh in a holdd i miss him sooo much and i see him in 56 days and serisoulyy thats soo FREAKIGN long like 56 sounds sooo long..but Febuary 18th sounds closer soo yea i get to go there for a change...well cross your fingers becausuue my confirmation snow date is that 4 day weekend when im suposed to see him..if not ill make my own 4 day weekend soo im not THAT worried...it jsut means i have to go to school every day till feb. ryan was tellign me this morning when he called that i was soo asleep last night that i was basically talkign outta my assss. hehe i dont remember himallign me..but i know i woke up this morning mad becuase he didnt call me and i called amber to tell her he didnt call me:( and i was gonna send hima text message..but i figured i woudl jsut act like i didnt care beause sometimes he gets mad when i get tooo like attached like that:-/ he likes it better with a bit more space..which i am tryign to dooooo beause i love him looots.:) well daniella and fristch just called and i guess were ognna go sleep at fritsches tonight i serosuily used to never go there eaither lol because she hasd no cell service and i coul dnever talk to ryan..sooo yea but no she doess soo i get to goo:) umm anything else i need to say? going to the mall tomorrow hopefully to get some tuff and exchange stuff...yay. well i miss and love ryan sooo much. ill end onn that. Its hard enough just passing the time when i cant seem to get you off my mind and where is the good in goodbye?