im not doing good at all, im feeling really sick, and im not motivated anymore....i guess this can be my sad depression stage now..I love ryan with everythign i got..and for now he has my heart in his hands..and he can choose to do whatever he wants with him...he doesnt want me taling to him for a while which is hard cause i hate sweeing him online, i just wanna call himi and tlel him how much i love him just so he knows, cause i dont want him to forget ever..he has myy heart forever and he will always be a part of me no matter what happens in the future.