yeah well im really not doing good..like at all i feel sick not motivated and sad..i guess this is my upset/depreessed stage for a loong time...i love ryan soo much an di just wish i could tlel him that but as for now he doenst want me talking to him for a "while" i dunno how long that is...but i hate seeing him online orrr likeee anything cause ij sut wanna IM him or call hima nd tlel him how muhc i love him...that kids got my fricken life in hsi hands i sware...whatever he decideds to do with me will effect me soo much...hes got my heart in his hands..and its his choice of what he wants to do with it..he can brake it for the last time..or we can be better again. I love you Ryan, and i just want you to know that youve got my heart forever and always no matter what happens in the future. I love you. You asked me how I'd been I guess that's when I smiled and said just fine Oh but baby I was lying What I really meant to say Is I'm dying here inside I miss you more each day There's not a night I haven't cried And baby here's the truth I'm still in love with you That's what I really meant to say.