well ryan left todayy andd yea i dont get to see him next till February 18th..HOPEFULLLY because i have a stupid church thing in january 18 or something and if it snows thennn the makeup date is febuary:(:( it kinda suckss i wnot no if i can see him in february till likeeee January 20th which is soo far away for me :( i already miss him and im like crying..(figures) im soooooo ughh when he leaves...buttt i had a good time better then last ;-) andddddd I love him. a lot. a lot. timesss a millllllllion. and its 7 effing 30 in the am..soo im gonna attempt to go back to sleep...im ognan go upstaris now and find my mickey and minnie:) and lay with themmm untill 9 when ryannn callls me...(from phili) ughhh this isnt fair. everyone else gets to be happpppy anddd live close to who they love...but nope nto me i get fucked in the ass. oh well we tralked about like the whole trusting thinggg soo i knowww he wont be with girls? hopefullllyy andd thats all i care about. ok ta ta for nowww... I love you Michael Ryan Norton. It's hard enough just passing the time When I can't seem to get you off my mind And where is the good in goodbye? oh noo i just licked my lippss! and they tasted like himmmm:( cuz i just kissed him before he left which was liek 5 mins agoo i taste that gummm...ughhhhhhh i hate days like this ecp. on christmas eve and christmas day cuz now im gonan be like hermit for a couple days/ weeks. i looove himmmm sooo much. i love you ryan and miisss you too:(