i hate myself why do i have to try...i hate this life...i hate it all...why can't he see he's important to me...i don't get it...why did i tell myself i wouldn't cry over him again but now i'm a stupid girl and i leak yet again...but he doesn't know...i don't want to tell him...he'll find out when he reads this...but that probably wont be for a while...*cries*...i hate this...stupid me...i want my...but then there would be yet another promise broken!