so...my life...what life...band is over...what else is there to do...nothing on my agenda...so...the toliet ate my watch...i already told that story...was used for cuddlingnes...whats new...feel like i'm being pushed away...tells me nothing is wrong but then he left...had an emergency talk with one of my best friends...i love you moo-moo! and i always will!...being forced to give a talk at yw...on integrity...what the crap is integrity anyways...cramping...want a job...sister is being mean, crabby and stupid...wishing that the boy would talk to me...stupid double stuffed cookies...feeling usless...way behind in class...teacher is mad that i wont put in extra time...i feel like i'm losing him...like he doesn't care...but then he did come with me to brothers for movie and game...stupid embarassing brother...but it was funny...go stink boy!...wanting to curl into a ball...wait i want to be held but a boy...any boy...i miss you...sorry you all had to suffer through that...