i'm so stupid why do i act this way i'm so stuborn...i hate it...i'm going to loose him over my stupidity...*cries*...i don't know what is wrong so i don't know what to tell him...she's right it's my fault he lost his best friends...he probably wants to leave me but doesn't want to be the one to do it...i'm so stupid...i don't deserve him...but i don't want to leave him...i want to die with next to the one i love