why is my head saying let go you have others but my heart is saying why would you work so hard just to let it go so easy...ugh!...not crying!...*deep breath*...my chest hurts and i can't breathe...my hear hurts...i can't think...first he lowers himself to my level of life then remind himself he had something great with someone on his own level but now he can't reach her...i hate this i think i'm going to go curl up and die...i wont be missed...but i'll still miss him...