My VERY best friend ever called me tonight and was really upset because she said she feels like she's losing her best friend because I'm always with Ivan and never call anymore. I feel really bad because it's SO not intentional, I just work all week then go up to his place and stay on the weekends, and most week nights too. I know I haven't been hanging out with her a lot lately, but it's not like I don't want to, I'm just always doing stuff with Ivan. I promised her it would stop though and that I'd start hanging out with her more. We're supposed to be going to the mall tomorrow, I think... she wants to buy a new hoodie so that's probably where we'll go. Then our friend Darrell might be having a party Saturday night, so I might be going to that with everyone too, since they all tell me I don't come out anymore. Crystal IMed me tonight and said "What's your name again? I started to forget what you look like, I had to look at my picture tonight to remember." She was just being a smartass, but it got me upset too because I guess it made me realize I really haven't been hanging out with all my friends like I used to. But I'm sorry, I'm not trying to diss them, I swear! But what can I do? I can't diss Ivan and start hanging out with them ALL the time like I used to! And the only time Ivan and I get to see each other is in the evenings after we both have got off work or on the weekends. And we won't be able to see each other on the weekends much longer because he's gonna start hunting all the time again. I don't know what to do... :( Even though I know I don’t want to know Yeah I guess I know I just hate how it sounds...