i just watched a new alexisonfire video! accidents. it was good but i was wondering where jesse was and then ya..at the end..yup..lol alexisonfire is my favorite band, and dashboard confessional. im so glad jay told me it was on. but i missed George when he was on much music. telling about the video. and he introduced it. but hey..hopefully theres another re-run. george is my obsession..lol i hate saying that but hey..i love the bands music and all..george just has that nerdy look..i love it. hes so hot lol..i met him once..hes really nice. the whole band is nice. but ya..mike trys to pretend everything is okay. he knows im depressed i just think he hates dealing with it. i think it makes him feel like shit, but i cant help it. and i know he wants to be happy cause he has mare now. so he doesnt want to get involved with my problems..so im just going to sit...with no one to help me. my friends always come to me for advice cause i can always fix their problems and when they dont listen to me in the end they know they should have. but i can never seem to figure out my own problems. latley i've felt so..down. i dont know what to do. i cant talk to anyone, no one understands and then i get flusterd. ohh and what really bothers me is that mike knows i feel lonley and i hate being with copules when im the only one without someone..well he decides to ask me if i want to do soemthing with mare and him, and alisha and shawn (alisha is my other bestfriend, that never calls me anymore cause she has a boyfriend, what a bestfriend eh?) YA RIGHT!!! what was he thinking...im not going to fucking sit around and let them do their thing..i feel so pathetic..