I've come to the conclusion, that I can't force myself to find someone.I need to just let it happen.You can't make it happen..sheesh. Its just that I wanted someone so bad, that I would put up for anyone..and that doesn't work, because then I end up with assholes. And thats why I let him get away with so much shit. Because I wanted something so bad, that I let him treat me like shit,and lie to me..and everything else. This time, I'm just going to let it happen. When someone comes along..they come along..and things may turn out, they may not. You can't expect things to be perfect. It just doesn't work that way..its not like in the movies where its always a happy ending. It wouldn't make a good relationship. you need bad endings, you need to be dumped, you need to be lonely for a little while, you need to argue, you need to fight, you need to feel hopeless like no one wants to be with you, and everything else. I have no idea if this is making sense. It just makes sense in my head..and if I read over it, it probably will make no sense what so ever. Well, Good day