okay well..i was talking to jay and telling her what mike asked me..the whole want to come to alishas and shawn and mare will be here..and how i felt on that and shes like go have fun and i was like how can i have fun? sitting there by myself while they do their thing..i'd rather stay home by myself. and she said i wollow in my own self pitty? pfft...maybe shes right..but still she has no right to say that she has no idea whats going on, or how i feel. and shall we talk about self pitty? shes one to talk..jeez..and i know mike and her have been talking about me..cause jay got all involved cause she knew i was upset so she started yelling at mike then mike explained, but i lied to mike, im not fine. and i know he knows im not. hes just telling himself and jay that..erg. so they've emialed eachother and talked about it, cause they werent talking and now they are which means..they probably have been talking about me..i'll find out..some how..well i do know mikes password..he still might have those emails..no i cant..i'll try talking to him first..see what happens. if i find out hes lying i'll be pissed off..more then i already am..