for the last few days i have not been sleeping. last night i fell asleep at 11:00, then i woke up at 2:30 and could not go to sleep. i always feel like someones going to come in my house. childish, i know, but i get really scared, and start taking anxiety attacks..i think i might need something to help that. im just so paranoid. well anywasy i woke up at 2:30 and couldnt sleep so i turned on the tube and watched, will and grace, then just shoot me, then an old show called taxi, which i love..heh..and i stayed up until 8, and since my mom was up i could finally sleep so i slept until 11:30 but i kept waking up. well today is mikes birthday, we're talking again but i still feel like i need to be mad at him, i wont talk to him about it today, wouldnt want to ruin his birthday. but i need to talk to him, i think hes up to something or theres something that isnt covered that i need to know and hes not telling me. but ya the funniest thing just happend to me..about 15 minutes ago. okay one of those people that go door to door, for cancer donations or something, well this guy came to my door for sponsor a child, and my hair was still wet and i hadn't brushed it yet, and this guy came to my door and i was like ahh...and then he started hitting on me..haha..well atleast he was young..well he looked young maybe 18 - 19..hes coming back though..he wants to talk to my mom to see if she'll sponsor a child. cause i cant..cause i dont have a job. or i would..i want to cry everytime i see those little children dying...it makes me sad. this world is cruel, so very cruel..well im off, good day. <3jami