there's this boy i met recently and nothing about him reminds me of you.

it's refreshing and heartbreaking at the same time.

i'll let him take me to a movie and dinner this weekend and i'll try not to think about our first date and how we agreed dinner and a movie is overused so instead we took a blanket to the park and shared a bottle of wine and stories from our childhoods.

maybe this is how it's supposed to be, how it's supposed to start.

maybe us always trying to carve our own path and not follow normalcy is what ruined us.

some days are better than others. today you haven't left my mind much. i've thought about our fights, our love making, our secrets, your smile.

i'll hope for more space in my own head tomorrow.