it's not easy to admit that it's me that's been keeping me down. the world isn't out to get me, that boy just saw a path for his life that didn't include me. i used to realize these things easily but lately it's just taking more time.

i've been in a slump for far too long now and my mind and body just can't take it anymore. and then there's this boy here, this boy that listens to my every word but doesn't always agree just to appease me, this boy that looks at me like he's seeing me for the first time every time, this boy that touches my forearm when i get worked up about something silly and pushes my hair behind my ear and waits until i am calm again...

i want to know him and let him know me and i will no longer get so twisted and turned and inversed that i stop knowing myself.