You know it seems that no matter how hard i try i feel like im not tring hard enought when we say we love each other do we really mean it or is it just illusions of the mind i really hope that our love will alst forever. Sonny my night and shining armor i miss the times we had when we first starting dating you made me laugh we hugged and kissed all the time now its once in a while. I really wanna to have that back i gave up me life to be with him to show him that hes the one for me yeah i have made some big big mistake that i wish i culd take back but i truly truly love sonny to death i would do anything for us to be happy i feel alone most of the time i just wanna feel alive. I want to ask sonny to be my husband but i want to make sure that he loves me like he says he does. It feels like he doesn't becasue the way he says the painful hurtful word to me i wonder if he hates me i hope not i hope he knows that when i say i don't always mean it but when i do mean it its when he says the meanes thing to me like im a cunt or a bitch or fuck you we aren't suppsoe to do that to each other. I really hope thatw e work i would love to be his wife and to have his child even though im so young i know what i want i hope he want the same thing and just not saying he does. it seems like somthimes he doesn't i jsut want to cry and scream i wish it was perfect jsut to laugh with each other to old hands go for walks to hug and cuddle wwould make me so happy but he seems like he never want to i feel as he doesn't want me man ir really hope hes not thinking that Please sonny say you love me and lets stop fighting i love you