What did i do to diserve this im not suppse to live like this im suppose to be happy but everytime i think things are going good and im happy it just all falls apart. I just wish he could just listen to me and to my feelings its like he loves hurting me he always calls me names and i bag him to stop and he promices he will but he always breaks them and still calls me names. i just want him to stop please god make him stop i don't want him to be like this he isn't the man i fell in love with he says he wants to be with me but how can i be with sombody that treats me like that its like he acts as if hes perfect or somthing he never does anything wrong only everone eles does and if we do anything wrong well then he gets mad and yells at you for it. like i had a realy bad week i lost my bus pass and cell phone and he freaks out like hello u aren't my father u have no right to yell at me or give me shit things happen mistakes happen. i dunno maybe this relaionship is a mistake i really don't want to think that but what eles am i suppse to think if it wasn't a mistake our realionship would be fine. you know if he really loved me he wouldn't do this unless this is how he is 3 1/2 years for what i feel so stuck and lost in my heart and mind like i have no say in anything i can't do anything i can't feel anything casue if i do well i get yelled at. maybe if he ever read my diary well maybe he can see what kind of person he is casue he acually reading it. maybe just maybe it might click fuck what the use of trying anymore if it's gonna lead to this