when will it be my turn to get what i want, im not trying to sound that i have to get what i want but what i really want is to have my boyfriend to my self for while. i hate having a house full. I never get any alone time with him. I don't know it wold just be nice to have it all come true for just once. I always wonder what did i do to get where i am. I hvae no mom my dad is dieing slowly, my boyfriend has a family of his own already, the threee most important people in my life and i can't be happy with any of it. I wonder if any others find this weird caue i do and so does my family i came to edmonton for a visit with my family sonny went to bc where he doesn't really know anyone when relly i either could have gone with him or he could have came with me and we could hvae had a time together where there are no worrys, no kids, nothin just me and him but he didn't want to all he said is that if he get bored he will come earlier to see me and take me home but whatever this relationship is so fucked up i don't even know what going on anymore. it would just be nice to have a normal life where im happy for a change