I love sonny so much that is drives me cray thers times hes says the most sweetest things to me and there the time that mostly occur the name calling we throw at each other. Man do i ever really wish i had a glass ball that could tell me the future so i can fix anything to make it all right. Its almost 3 years wow my longest realtionship he means the world to me but i can't stand the arguring anymore make it stop how can i i know he feels the same way but how can we fix it i jsut really want to be happy again that would be so nice i can't stand yelling at each other anymore no matter how much i love him i just wish this realtionship i hate when he thinks im doing somthing im not i hate him so much somtimes he always thinks hes always right about me and thinks everything. i swear even though i love sonny so much i can't stand it anymore i wish i could just leave but i really can't cause he means everything to me and so does his family i pray that one day that can just leave this place and see my mom my dad fucks everything up and sonny and i always argure what the point of even being here. man do i ever feel like im goin nuts you know he says he loves me and that he wants to make me happy i wonder if we are still gonna go to councelling that would be good i wonder if ir would work i guess we'll see won't we i don't know i hate life and everything to do with it right now at this point we w/e