Discribe normal most defenitly not me. I feel like im stuck in a spot and i cant make a move. if i was normal maybe i wouldn't feel like that. Things have been so stressful and you would think no one can live like. The fighting and yeeling and screaming, The lack of trust, The lack of love. HOw is that life normal, im=n my books its not, its more like living in hell. I always wonder to my self if the one is out there waiting for me or is this the one that is the closest i get. Caue this really doesn't not feel like the one. Its like my mind doesn't even make sence anymore. I can't sleep, i feel so frustrated and bitchy. The thing is i never well i can't never say never casue there was a time were i did feel like this before. But im suppsoe to be happy. Im so young and i can barely feel it. I just wish i could close everything out and look at my self in a differnt way. I want to be the one on the outside looking in. So i can see the pictures for what it really is. Liek i have said many time before that would be just to easy. And east just does not come to me. Life has to be hard and fucked up.