mall we went to jakes house nd of corse tova nd jack aagin AL OVER EACH OTHER and it fucking kills me i was like crying nd i couldnt take it and me nd tova took so many advils i took 10 and she took 8 she didnt even know why i was taking them.. nd i guess she took them to wash away shawn cuz he has hurt her so much nd i feel so bad. nd now jack is supposidly like inlove with her .. but josh fried *i tell him everything now.. like wow* nd he told me that jack is ussing tova fer play nd it just proves that he used me fer it too nd hes such a fucking ass wow ahhhh i need to like cry forever nd im so weak right now from the advils like i sleep nd cry nd throw up nd i can barley walk i eaither black out er like fall. i had this many i should have just commited suicide like ive never come this close.. i should have just went through with it. in jakes bed i would have died. with jack nd tova in the room. how perfect is that? bottom line. im jealous. nd i dont know how to stop caring. i cry nd cut nd overdose nd every fucking thing nd i cant take it. i cant even fucking tell people hwo i feel. i tell josh.. but i dont tel him i like jack i told tova that i liked jack.. but she doesnt know hes liek using her. I HATE JACKK UGH IM NOT TELLING HIM NE THING i dont realy talk to jake too much ne more. its kinda sad. i hope everyone is happy. happy like i pretend to be x/3