Things have been getting a little better lately. School is still effed up and needs to be changed. I am so sick of it because people are so effing messed up at my school. It's effing gay! I have refrained myself from saying fuck because i don't really like the word, and people just use the word to try and act cool or because they are extremely effing pissed. I just don't like the word, so i am not going to use it anymore. Is that ok with you? Well, i don't care what you think. Friends-omg i could not live without the ones i can completely trust with my life. The friends like that are the ones i know i will have forever, because i can always count on them to be there for me when i need them , or just when i need a shoulder to cry on. Ah, it's just so good right there. As for my love, well i got some of it out to him, about my feelings for him. Which is good, i hope.. i haven't talked to him since Thursday..and this little truth shit just happened on Wednesday. I hope nothing changed cuz he's my best friend, and that would just completely effing suck. Thank you *NPH* for helping me through all of this, i don't know what i would if you weren't talking to me that night. Awe im so in love with you.