So i was talking to my friend like a couple days ago, and she helped me decide that it's time to let go. if he comes back to me..then i know it was love both ways, cuz i know i still love him. but it's been this way for a while now, and i just can't seem to take it anymore..so it's time to let go..i'll never forget it.. On a brighter note, this weekend i made a lot of money.. i would have to say the total was about 75 bucks. which i was happy to get! i love it cuz i get paid every week just for babysitting. and it's great. but track starts soon..so babysitting every week will be over for a while. but today school was cancelled..i got up and everything and then announce a two hour delay..then at about 8:16 the decided to cancel school..it was great. i made money again today..so it's all good. i'm getting to become up with a lot of money lately..spring shopping soon?? who knows..but i things are getting better, but i still have that pain..and i'm trying to get rid of it..but i doubt it was EVER go away. I'm not changing..i'm just starting over..