Ok so last night i was thinking about a lot of things while i lay in bed trying to fall asleep. which didn't seem to happen for a while last night..i "went" to bed at like 9*30 but i'm not sure what time i actually fell asleep. who knows who cares. so with all of that..today at school i was in the WORST mood ever..i was a bitch and when people touched me i kind of got like the chills cuz i didnt want people touching me too much. but hey that's life..and thats how things are going to go. so yeah then i wanted to like cry all day..and im sick of feeling like that. but i couldn't cry cuz its school and i didnt want to cry cuz i ALWAYS cry and i shouldn't. but whatever..i hate high school. so that was like not fun and i cant breathe right now which sucks even more..my lungs are killing me..i hate running in like ice weather. but hey that's life..you got to deal with it. im talking to him right now..he just makes my days better. i would seriously die without him, he is my best friend, and he is there when i need him to be there. ah i miss hanging out with him..it really saddens me..he is just so much fun to be with and i love being in his arms..he..makes me feel safe. its the only time i do really feel safe..ah i miss it. so yeah boring but who gives a shit.